Why Would I Ever Want to Stop Partying?

Good question. I didn’t want to stop. I wanted to party right into my grave. But I couldn’t stop little thoughts like:

1. You know, I really might be out of control.
2. I wonder who else knows how much I drink or use drugs?
3. I sure seem to think about drinking and drugging an awful lot.
4. I could get arrested any time, then what?
5. Why is everybody around me who is not drunk constantly upset with me?
6. Is being wasted really the same thing as being happy?

Annoying thoughts like these were taking the edge off of my partying fun. Then, for me, came the inevitable complete collapse, which you can read about here. Of course everybody is not like me. If this doesn’t sound like you, click here, maybe you’re more like this.

Once I stopped drinking and drugging and started living a life based on the 12 steps to recovery my whole world changed. Completely. I never looked for any of this, but now these things happen:

1. I wake up feeling great, knowing where I am and how I got here.
2 . Nobody yells at me, well, hardly ever.
3 . My family and I get along great.
4 . It is easy not to think about, especially not to want, a drink or a drug.
5 . I don’t obsess about money.
6 . I like it when the phone rings.
7 . I don’t stay angry.
8 . I feel free.

I could go on, but you get the idea. On the whole my thoughts and what goes on during my day is way more pleasant than it used to be. So, how’s about trading the thoughts and feelings you’ve got now for the one’s I’ve got now - is that a reason to stop?

If you are wondering "Am I out of control?" click here for some objective tests.