I am very lucky. I sometimes think I snuck into AA through the back door. I've said at meetings my wife joined AA and I got sober!

Sometimes, although less frequently than my first year in sobriety, I start to wonder if I am really an alcoholic. Then I stop and think how much better my life is since I stopped drinking, just how great it is. So why take a chance of giving up a better life just for a drink. It isn't worth it. I have come to think and this is somewhat ironic, that if saying I am an alcoholic is a mistake, then it’s the best mistake I have ever made.

Through AA, I have connected with my higher power, who I choose to call God. That is at least as important as being sober. I believe that if I go back to drinking I will loose this, so it is not worth it. To me sobriety is just an "add on" to all the good that my new found faith in God has brought into my life.

I believe that God orchestrated the events that led me to believe in Him and which led to my sobriety. I've felt that I did Step 2, before coming to terms with Step 1.

It has been a great journey, and each day is better, one day at a time. That doesn't mean that there are never any bumps in the road or that there aren't some rough days. When they do happen it just means I need to pray a little more, turn to God more, concentrate on the good and be thankful for it, and not to take a drink. Through the grace of God I know the next good thing will happen in my life.
Rick K

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